When all you can do is keep breathing....
If I stay up late several nights in a row, for whatever reason, it triggers me.
And yet here I am. Up late once again, knowing I need to rise at 5:30am for a job that is completely unstable due to recent activities brought on by my moods.
Mood.
What a stupid word.
Why do I do this to myself? Do you do this to? Do something, go somewhere that triggers you even though you KNOW it triggers you?
I don't want to feel this way but I know I will feel this way if I stay up late once again but I do it anyway and I have no explanation as to why.
None.
I had these ideas. Thoughts, movements, ideas, ideas flowing, coming and going of achieving things, changing things, correcting things.
But it never happens.
At the end of the day, all I can do is keep breathing.
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thehamstersdead) wrote,
Crappy
